One more seminar and some wishing.

I rounded up child care for tonight. My husband and I will be going to one more seminar, might not be the last but I hope it will be. My husband is very supportive of me, he doesn't like the idea of surgery because it's...well..it's surgery, but as far as me doing what I feel is necessary he's there for me. He can diet and exercise and lose weight and keep it off....I'm his saboteur. I'm hoping that once I can get myself under control that we can be happy and healthy.

I miss taekwondo. I managed to earn my blackbelt even though I was around 280 pounds the entire time. I really enjoyed myself, but unfortunately the wife of the owner and I had a disagreement where she questioned my ability as a parent and told me my children "weren't normal" at which point my husband and I decided that it was not the place for us. Since I stopped my weights gone up and I'm finding it really hard to exercise at all. It's not really aches and pains from joints that's prohibiting me it's that I get headaches every time I exercise. My blood starts pumping and my head starts throbbing. I'm really hoping that losing weight will help with this.

Here is a video of me doing my made up form for black belt testing...(I only show it because for some reason the camera made me look taller and thinner lol)